My thoughts are just swirling in my mind. I nervous about starting over in my career. I nervous about going forward in photography. I despise turning 30. And most of the time all that I can think about is if I could I would do everything different.
I feel like something is missing in my life. I can say that since my father's passing, I have felt lost. All that I can remember is that I liked where my life was going at that time. I was very comfortable at that point in my life. Things were going well for me. Then my father passed, since then I have had this void. I can say that I havent gotten back on track. I keep going back to the way my life was before he died. I was responsible for me. I went from being responsible for me to pretty much stepping into his shoes. Where before if a bill didnt get paid it was on me, if I didnt eat that was ok. I had my own space. Now things have changed so much, I dont even know where to begin.
I feel like packing up my truck and just moving somewhere anywhere to start all over.
I feel your heart and I wish there was something I could say to make it all better. You are an amazing person and you have awesome talent. DO NOT LET YOUR FEAR HOLD YOU BACK.
ReplyDeleteHoneslty, change is sometimes good. You always have a place here with me if you need to escape. LET GO AND LET GOD MOVE IN YOUR LIFE.