Do You have N.B.O?

Do YOU have N.B.O?

N.B.O Negative Body Obession. I always heard about it. AndI know that I suffer from it from time to time. Have you ever had a part of your body that you couldnt love, no matter what. It may have had you just hate onyourself and your body for being that way. It may also have had you dp all kinds of crazy things to our bodies.....Diet...Exercise...Starve. We might even find ourselves comparing ourselves to other women or even cry in a dressing room.

For me its my stomach/ab area, Ive been having problem with that area since I graduated from college. I not sure what happen. It seems like from nowhere I developed a pooch. I believe it came from stress and other aspects. And lord knows I have tried alomst everything to get rid of it. From workouts...starving...fad diets...even Weight Watchers it seems like nothing works. Dont let me be in a funk thats the first thing I noticed. Sometimes the only thing I can see is my stomach. I havent had any kids and my body at times look like Ive birthed 3. I wont even wear a bathing suit at times, even thou I LOVE the beach and water. Spending a day on the beach is heaven to me. I have let my N.B.O prevent me from enjoying life at times. I have not gone out,taken pictures, shopped at certain stores, or wear certain clothes due to my N.B.O.

Whats a girl to do?

I really do not like how I have let this have some control in my life. The funny thing is that I know that not everyone woman is suppose to be built with a coke-a-cola bottle shape or have the body of Beyonce' or Marilyn Monroe measurements.

Whats a girl to do?

Corinne Bailey Rae - Closer (Live in Williamsburg)

I love this song......

Random thoughts

As I sit here at work, so many thoughts go thru my mind. Today I decided to just write them down. They wont be in any order, but there are some things that I just have to get off my mind.

I find myself feeling bad for things that I have done or havent done.

I have mixed feelings about being 30.

I have a fear of being alone.

I sometimes think that Im not living up to my potential.

I feel that Im too nice to people, thus they take my kindness for weakness.

I hate to say "no" to people and their requests.

I hate disappointing looks on people's faces.

At times I suffer from low self-esteem.

I was a late-bloomer, and still is at times.

Sometimes I wish that I heared some type of feedback so I wouldnt have all these negative thoughts swirliong in my head. I swear I think that I the only one that is screwed up