Project 365 Week 6 - Sleep

Project 365 Week 4- Macro

Project 354 Week 3 - Breakfast

Project 365 Week 2- Cold

Project 365 Week 1- Newness

My List

everybody talks about how either you should or should have a list ......you know that list. well i wrote one and here it is

• Shows up on time
• Calls when he says he will
• Chooses honesty over excuses and lies
• Has a sense of adventure
• Has a passion for something
• Is down to earth (NO arrogance or cockiness, thank you!)
• Likes to talk, but also appreciates silence every now and then
• Isn't into drugs or heavy drinking
• Has respect for women
• Is a bit of a family man
• Respects that I'm an independent person
• Enjoys cooking meals
• Is loyal to those he loves!
• Smiles and laughs often
• Gives big, warm hugs
• Appreciates my style
• Makes 3am ice cream runs with me
• Would enjoy spontaneously packing a bag and going away for the weekend with me
• Makes me his top priority
• Is easy going
• Values a strong mind over a strong fist
• Likes to banter back and forth, out of affection
• Is quick witted
• Does romantic gestures for me
• Surprises me, pleasantly
• Can admit he's wrong and apologize
• Has ambition and motivation
• Listens and cares

10 things you dont know about me

• my favorite pastime is lying down, looking at the clouds
• i love horror movies, but can't really watch them alone, sometimes i fast forward through the really gruesome parts
• i'm the kind of person that makes jokes to hide their feelings
• if i had the chance i would move to a farm right now.
• i find it hard to take compliments, or i just don't believe them myself
• i have extremely good hearing and almost all of the time hear you, when i dont react its cause i'm ignoring you
• i have really high expectations for myself
• im pretty laid back, but i like things going my way
• i sing along with the music played in stores, and might even dance to it
• i think that im painfully average, i would love to do something memorable

2011

I spent my last day of 2010, reflecting......I reflected on the events and achievements of the past year to determine areas that can be improved and processes that can be enhanced. I can say that I was not to pleased with how 2010 panned out.I started the year with a negative outlook. I was very unhappy with my life. I was unemployed, finances were out of order, unhappy and felt that I was going to be eternally single. My mood swings forever dictated my days. There were times when I was happy to see the sun and there were times that I didnt even care if I woke up to see another day. I wanted it all to end. I felt like I was in a black hole. I never really told my friends how I truly felt. Some thought it was a phase and that I was overreacting. Others didnt know at all because I put on a very good front. They would ask questions but I would tell them only alittle bit. (I never really like sharing all with some people. There are very few that knows whats going on with me, I think that stems from me being emotional and most of my friends/associates feel that I react solely from my emotions)

Things did start to turn around in 2010, I went back to teaching after not teaching for a year I realized that thats all I want to do, I did date a man that truly understood me, even though it was short lived if felt good to know that I can be me in a relationship and not have to wear a mask. My finances picked back up. My overall attitude started to change, I also made some decisions when it came to my friends. There where some I had to say goodbye too. It was hard but that is how life is. I wish them no ill will, I wish them all the best.

They say the New Year always offers an opportunity for new beginnings because of the renewed sense of hope it brings. So for 2011, I making changes. My New Resolutions are my goals to achieve in 2011. I know there are somethings that I need to work on. So Im taking it one day at a time

1. Write more-I used to journal put what I was feeling/thinking on paper. It was a wonderful release, I need to get back to that.

2.Be a better friend- I have some wonderful friendships that I need to focus on. They have been there through thick and thin and accept me for me. I admit that I can be a better friend to them.

3.Live life- I do admit that there are times when I see the glass as half empty. Life is hard and there is no instructional manual. But I need to learn how to roll with the punches, grab the bull by its horns and keep it moving

4. Stop being a doormat- Thats a hard one, I know that is written all over me that I bend over backwards for everyone else and put myself last. I need to start saying no, and accept that it will be ok. Others are just going to have to get over it

5. Finish my certification- Ive been teaching for 9 yrs now, I should have my certification by now. Period

6.Accept my past- Another hard one, I am very hard on myself and I dwell and find myself thinking about my past. Yes there are somethings that I wish I did not do, but its too late, its done. I need to learn to build a bridge and get over it.

7. Develop my faith more- I admit, like its a big secret, Im not a religious person. Ive always been more spiritual. For me I feel that I will become a better person if I develop my faith more.

Yes its a short list, I know that I didnt put doing things like exercise more, eat healthy, manage debt. Those are a given. What I wrote down are the ones that I need to focus on and accomplish for me to enjoy 2011. So when I look back on 2011, I know I would have developed a better sense of self. I can look back and smile and move forward. Its a process, one thats long over due.